I'm sorry for everything.
For not being a good daughter.
For not being able to be little angel anymore.
Everyday, I try, but fail.
I let you down time and time again.
I'm worried for the future but I try to stay positive.
I'm uncertain of so many things.
All the questions just fill me up everyday.
I don't think I live a normal life.
Mine's full of drama.
My girls would know.
The madness. The Secrets. The Craziness
It's pretty overwhelming.
I know I'm only 17 but I'm already starting to settle.
I know S is the one.
Thus, marriage isn't that far away.
I don't think I can handle the stress now though
but I know I'm going to fight it.
I'll push myself to aim for the best and live the life I want to.
It's really hard but, I guess it's worth the while.
I don't know what is to come but
I guess, it's time to leave it to God.
Or life itself.
With everyday I wake up with a smile.
S once told me
"Life so too short to fear"
So for whatever it takes, I'm gonna trust it.
Cause as long as we're together, I know,
It's all going to be okay...